idol DREAMS

i didn’t want to be a senior planner…look sooooooo tua. i didn’t want what was around de corner, i hated the office politics. my work began to suffer because i was constantly questioning my lack of ambition. my health also suffered because deadlines, not exercising or eating well, came first. bila tention saya mula makan banyak…dan banyak (kebuluran tegar).

let be honest, there’s something special about being a pop star that beats just about every other profession in the world. muka chantek dan ensem dah bleh popular, kira bleh jual. walaupun bakat sekadar itik nila pulang petang. pokoknya you get paid a whole lot of money for doing something you love, you get vvip treatment everywhere you go, hordes of fans all want to be your friend, and there’s truckloads of freebies and guys? pheeeew! sape pedulik?

sepanjang malam ni saya abiskan masa di pusat bandar, alone. memerhati orang yang lalu lalang sambil mencuci mata pada bazzar segget. takde apa yang menarik. sekadar ambil angin malam yang mula sepoi-sepoi kedinginan. sambil menyanyi-nyanyi kecil hiburkan hati yang semakin dibalut kesepian (little bit period).

can you sing?

this may seem like stupidly obvious question, but you’d be surprised to know how many people think they can sing, but can’t we’re not talking about being able to belt out an aretha franklin number – just being able to sing in tune is something some folks find challenging enough. setakat nyanyi pok amai-amai tu pun blum tentu tan’uin dia btul lagi. semua orang ada bakat menyanyi, sedap atau tidak itu cerita kedua. cuba kita pejamkan mata dan dengar lima suara pilihan rambang sekeliling kita. cukup kenalkah kita suara tersebut? atau masih terkeliru? kali ini kita cuba pejamkan sekali lagi mata dan telinga yang tertutup pula. rasakan suara itu dari dalam hati. mampu tak kita meneka pemiliknya???

seringkali kita yakin menjadi pendengar yang baik, sedangkan kita gagal melihat apa yang sedang di dengar. dalam kita kehilangan arah, kita cuba berpandukan isyarat hati. kita gagal mengenal apa yang ada disekitar kita; apatah lagi untuk merasa dengan hati. kita terlalu ingin meneka. hey look, how pity i am? and i’m poor!!! if you want to be a star, start having the aura of a star. just don’t be a prima donna else you’ll never get the votes. sexy is good, but sultry is better.

can a tampon get lost inside my body? huahahahaha…erm.