mou lihua

“the secret of the beautiful lotus lies in the mud from which it grows”.

after dua kali saya watchin’ diz movie…fully PERFECT!!! "talentime" does not disappoint in that sense. the kind of characters that you would not disassociate from real life people in malaysia, a rich blending of all that makes our country unique. bangsa malaysia! yg pandai makan sambal, tempeh and budu too, even cencalok atas daun pisang huh? we’re malaysian pe? w’pun ckp berbelit-belit like samy vello. no more racial and religious issues, no more controversial & political issues. *subject to change.

have always been a sentimental look into human emotion; matters of the heart and most importantly - the concept of love. cinta, kasih dan sayang digarap dgn melankolik diselang music yg cukup clean as halwa telinga. i might also be thinking "buy the OST when it comes out because the music in this film was wicked awesome!" credit to atilia, aizat and others…i like “angel” sooooo…much. meleleh beb air mata and my hingus ni (“,) huhuhu.

“i have fallen for an angel”

it's no lie to say that yasmin ahmad's movies are all little slices of life's pie where you can sit down and get a whiff of its delicious scent before taking a bite into something fulfilling.

“saya sembah tanah yang ibu berjalan…” and after dat my mata mula kabur, so touching. kenapa cinta itu begitu sukar utk diterjemahkan? dimengertikan? bukankah cinta itu suci, ikhlas dan berani? berdosa dan cacatkah memiliki prasaan sebegini? you can catch de next sentence at other blogger’s, i really like diz scene. really-really- really much.

love comes in silence… why can’t the sun do a same at nite?

tak semua yg kita lihat itu indah, dan tak semua yg hadir itu “sempurna”. who’s melur and mahesh dalam diri kita? ketidaksempurnaan itu membuatkan ianya lebih indah b’cos idup itu pair like chopsticks. saling lengkap melengkapi… when the two of them stare silently into each other's eyes; expressing their love without words. lor, so lo-man-tik right?

“dia tak sebodoh yg awak sangka, dan awak tak sepandai yg awak sangka”, just hold on…and then make your own decision.

p/s: filem yasmin slalu lengang, so i bleh bayo satu tiket for de whole cineplex. berbaloikan? “arse licker” you must watching diz movie, tak rugi & really touchin’ babe. two thumb up!!!

60 EARTH HOUR

8:30PM local time

wherever you live on planet earth!!!

Saturday 28 March 2009

brings hope to the preservation of our shared planet’s precious environment today and for generations to come...amin.

shin chan

dulu saya tak pernah kisah pun pasal any scandal yg berlegar around me. for me juz simple…not my own business-lah and why you all nak kapoci kan??? hahaha but now makin lama saya berada dlm bidang korporat and keparat ni, a lot of scandals was happen, not to me but....? according to me scandal is a type of rumour, which came slowly in the media or “keudara” and then stays for a long time in the muka bumi ni and make me bingit too.

scandal can be real or totally base on the false rumours or allegations, or might be possible that a mixture of both. it happen sometimes that when a person or group is trying to hide their scandal or illegal activities, and fails to hide them, then it becomes a more big scandal. fu-la-mak, when you attached with any scandal and dat mean korang mmg dah terkena “mak esah” or “mandrem” cos totally blind like blind bamboo…nak kena babab ni :p pwoooorrr…yg ni plak takde kaitan langsung dgn any scandal or sandal jamban korang tu, but it’s came from one of our scandals…plural* you all baca eh. citer ni berlaku bila “sin chan” yg chomel tu make it byk sgt scandal dgn smua pompuan chantek termasuk la cikgu nyer. sbb dia tu chomel, takde sape pun nak marah w’pun in fact…adoooooos.

cikgu: sin chan nape awak lambat? mama awak tak kejutkan eh?
shin chan: erm...cikgu yg seksi (aksi geliat gedik) wo-wo-wo ni smua salah papan signboard tu lah.
cikgu: papan tanda yg mana satu? papan iklan ke?
shin chan: ala cikgu ni, yang ada tulisan, "sekolah di hadapan, jalan perlahan" tu lah dah buat saya lewat pegi sekolah ari ni. cikgu ok kan?

hahahaha, lucu eh???

moral of de story, kalo korang terer buat scandal, korang bleh sorokkan fakta dpn bijik mata & will survive. dgn hanya put extra wording ”gedik santai” can cover all diz thing. cepat atau lambat dah tak menjadi persoalannya lagi. for me, scandals are very important for the famous people like me (mati dek!!!), via this they are always "in" in the news.

there can be many types of scandals. kiranya mcm dadah tegar gitew. bleh buat kita khayal, epi, lalok and lupa jap psl anak, bini, laki & ipar duai and pe yg btul or not. if you not very de very “fofular” and dgn adanya little bit scandals bleh make you of famous people. yg ni mak suka…juz for rating.

“i’m thinking she doesn’t want to talk about “you know who”. but it just really makes her look more humiliated. she really ought to come out with a great big smile like she doesn’t give a sh** cause he’s nothing but a bast**** anyway”.

p/s: shin chan, ma kasih ya mr zero tuk gue. “enggak bisa lupain kamu” chomel bangat.

chapter two: multi-suck-ing

beberapa hari sebelum convention & exhibition, saya and “all” bebudak opis telah di “tag” by our mayor utk buat community service kat city central like faizal tahir kena buat masa kes bukak baju superman dulu. bezanya kali ni kita org yg tak brapa nak berdosa ni telah dijadikan buruh paksaan men”tan”kan our skin supaya lebih realistik like buruh bangla or indon on dat morning glory.

dat good day huh? tak tau apa prasaan saya dan org lain masa tu. bila smua officer tak kira krabat istana or balaci haprak kena bawak cangkul, penyapu and plastic hitam to kutip sampah and ignorekan all public yg lalu lalang like rancangan wakenabeb? wa mmg terkena beb!!! wakakaka.

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with abg mie was acting as "mamat bangla" huhuhu.

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hanya mereka yg ikhlas dan rajin berusaha je tau prasaan mereka yg berkerjaya begini! drop his water face semata-mata utk sesuap nasi. can u imagine diz? ikhlaskan mereka…pernah kita ucapkan terima kasih? pernah kita appreciate all diz thing? kalo korang kata darjat korang tinggi, salary korang highers…korang kena cuba-try-test diz community service. cukup menguji level dewa-dewa, berbaloi beb!!!

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batik + telok belanga = telok bangla

alhamdulillah, terlepas gak segala azab bila las wik berakhirnya program bersama ministry kerajaan tempatan tu. rasa nak tertanggal segala sendi, mcm tertukar tulang pelvis la saya...kita org mmg penat gilerrrrr. three day yg full pack + logistik for urusetia mmg la bersepah-sepah. dari hotel ke lapangan terbang, ke ciq smuanya ada pegawai yg standby to sambut datuk-datuk ni yg suka-suki je sampai bebila masa. tak campur lagi program samrah + zapin = dinner, lawatan for anak & datin-datin atas cruise. ayooooo, ge-geh. bilangan guest dari 300 org bertambah sekali ganda dalam school break begini. bagi memendekkan citer…biarlah gambo hp cap ayam saya je yg ceritakan…

teknik "smoky eye's" nurol shukor...ngantuk?

pose chantek with bini org & ngaku "virgin mary"...korok mu :p

convention & exibition centre

chapter one: all-new mail

super”vavi” ler kalo dah dua tiga ari ni tak sempat nak bernafas, baru je abis exhibition kat persada johor. terpaksa ler timba oksigen kat pokok bunga. apa korang ingat saya ni spesis fotosentesis ke??? multi-suck-ing la katakan? wiken lebih pendek tak sempat nak tgk matahari terbit...so malam lebih panjanglah? ka-e-dah sgt, korang ingat ni kat kutub? juz create a reason to rest, tapi pagi ni si penyu seawal mungkin dah bangunkan saya ajak b’fast. pwooorrhhh, ngatuk giler.

having b’fast nasi lemak ayam kat port biasa, and after melantak trus i drive my binatang ternakan ke nusajaya. motif? lawatan rasmi opis baru penyu.

petang ni saya curik masa to reply smua email and notes peminat. ada ke? mati la dekkkkkk. masa saya tgh blogging & gonggong my adik angkat nyer post and suddenly…i s.h.o.u.t!!! mau sawan vavi dibuatnya bila terthumb tag dgn picture lama. dat my very-very old picture and was taken if i not ting-tong masa convo “kylie minox” on 2000. dat university era and all takluk jajahan kami. very de kekwat!!! mau merintih makcik-makcik nak menantukan kita org, wakakaka. dah nine year ago, time tu masih bergetah skrap lagik!!! kami like twin, like paris hilton & nicole (agak-agak ada tak org nak santau mak if i make it diz statement?) huhuhu i re-read his statement and juz copy & paste de photos at here;

“how i've lost so many friends after my graduation”

imcas.com.my

venue: danga mall, johor bahru (level 4)

date: mid march till mid june '09

time: 10 am / pm

my favourate Leha Vuitton, see ya!!!

3:160

i'm in sing-a-pore!!! and again.

satu-satunya iklan tv yg saya nantikan saban tahun, chantek & menyentuh jiwa is "petronas v.t" brain-child by yasmin ahmad's. dan kerana dia jugak "today" saya hijrah for muallaf (the convert). i’m out-dated for a week (dun kill me*).

jatuh cinta dgn iklan komersialnya, then trus kagum with “rabun”. no reason why bila kekacang bagitau kiter and ajak tgk diz movie, tak pikir panjang i said “i do” excited gilerrr. no taxi, no mrt train or any buses saya cuma drive my kelisa ke woodlands mencari cathay cineplex causeway point singapore by map. everyone knows this mall katanya, but not really me. dat movie hanya opens on thursday, march 5 till 11 (hanya 3 waktu tayangan setiap ari) very limited eh? (at least, ada org yg kenal seni & nak tayangkan).

pe yang menarik, show on dat monday hanya ditonton oleh three stooges + tujuh org lagi makhluk yg celik filem = gelak dalam panggung beso & sejok giler. wakakaka, kami enjoy giler babi siot…takde org melayu ke yg reti tgk citer ni? pedulik pe? saya bayo dlm sing dollar peh!!! lagi pun kami mmg nak enjoy epi-epi hour, no more pressure. mcm org kaya sewa panggung for private party. su-dah!!!

basic citer ni mudah je tentang 20-year old rohani and her 14-year old sister rohana are two malay girls on the run from their wealthy, abusive father. finding refuge in a smaller town, their secret little world collideswith that of robert ng, a 30-year old catholic school teacher. i see new faces here, with leads brian yap and sharifah amani's real sister sharifah aleysha. pelakon tak ramai…baju pun tak chantek, but citer dia mmg superb. the young man finds himself irresistibly drawn towards the sisters, and the extraordinary courage with which they face adversity, in a relationship that inevitably forces robert to confront a haunting memory of his own troubled childhood.

in this story of lost souls who find comfort in each other, friendship opens the window to forgiveness and a reconciliation with the past.

instead of an ending that will move me to tears (at least i felt that way), like that in sepet, gubra minus the end coda), and mukhsin even, muallaf concluded on a rather positive note that made me break out in a smile and cheer the protagonist on. despite of course some scenes being a little choppy, and having things left open ended, and the sisters being devoid of screen time and stuck to quick resolutions instead.

i cry silently, hopelessly (i like dat scene masa brian baca terjemahan holy qur’an di sisi minah cina yg koma without any prejudis) cry inside of me. something which almost never happens, will happen. it's called a "re-release" look up the holy quran and later confess how they found it beautiful.

till now, saya masih confuse…not really confusing with de storyline “muallaf” but confuse dgn lembaga penapisan filem kita yg “tetiba peka” (selalunya pekak) dan haramkan tayang di negara sendiri. aren't yasmin babies beautiful? kalo rambut ni panjang dah lama saya cucuk sanggul...hahaha, stupid.

"if allah helps you, none can overcome you. if he forsakes you, who is there, after that, that can help you? in allah, then, let believers put their trust" ~ al-imran, 3:160.

“jom mkn murtabak singapore?”

computer korok-mu!

ari ni mood saya mmg pure “malas”. mak tiri bawang puteh pun tak malas camtu tau. my schedule mmg pull pack giler babas. kena gak buat keje walaupun terpaksa merangkak mcm ju-on tu. sambil tangan ni ligat mengetuk papan keyboard merosakkan manicure bebuatan yg mmg rugi kalo keje sampai tak sempat nak jd chantek. huahuahua. suddenly my “broadband” buat hal….sengal la…dah la smua keje urgent, time ni la nak buat lawak??? alo pakcik, mana satu nak pakai ni? lappy ke comp opis ni? eleh, jeles la tu kalo tak beleh nak kerek cam kiter. korang pernah terpikir tak sehari idup tanpa binatang ni? pe? computer la ngok!!! korang ingat unta!!! : ] some computer terms bila translated to bahasa look so funny tau? tak caya? meh blajo bahasa with me slepas mak tungang langgangkan sesedap rasa all term bout computer.

cakera keras = hard disk, dah biasa dengorkan?

tetikus = mouse

papan kunci = keyboard

cd-rom = cakera padat ingatan melalui pembacaan (cp-imp) - isn’t that bit too much to ingat? try pronouncing that without twisting your tongue or pausing to think. imps?

monitor = what’s the term for this? ketua darjah? hahaha.

modem = could it be called “pempend” <– pemodulasi, pendemodulasi? apa kebenda ni beb??? confuse mak.

motherboard = “papan ibu” probably? maybe the best motherboards can be awarded the “papan ibu mithali” then? or motherfucker!!!

sound card = kad bunyi? sound blaster = peletup bunyi? lu-cu-lah :p

pipeline burst cache = duite garisan paip meletup?

local bus = bas tempatan? sounds good to me. mcm bas kat terminal tu kan? yg lembab giler, ge-geh sengal bontot if ddk lama.

vesa local bus = bas tempatan vesa? flatbed = katil leper? or katil rumah pangsa (flat)? motif???

www = sarang labah-labah selebar dunia (ssd)? sounds quite convincing to me. kena tanya spiderman ni.

then what would you call daughterboards? papan anak perempuan? that sounds a little kinky for me. what about simms and dimms and such…? ayooooo, tolonglah…mengarut btul huhuhu.

wonder what would you call ink jets then~pancutan dakwat???

what about “plug and play [tm]“? hmmm..plug and play….cucuk dan main??? somehow i think not…lucah siot!!! sengal. uweeeeeek.

joystick = batang gembira or batang ria?? damn obscene man!!!

don’t you think that computer terminology in bahasa is really weird? korang gelakkan? at least, ari ni i’m soooooo tired but epi-epi also.

lost my vocal

syarat-syarat penyertaan:

korang copy to your own note, erase my answers, enter yours, and tag twenty people. if you don’t want to tag any people, bleh la you tag binatang plak. motif? use the first letter of your name to answer each of the following questions. they have to be real; nothing made up or “make up”! if the person before you had the same first initial, you must use different answers. berdosa tauuuuu!!! you cannot use any word twice and you can't use your name for the boy / girl name question. pe, korang ingat ni recycle bin…can use twice? puas ati i tukar smua wordin’ ni…so i starts with an [c]

1. what is your name : cham’s…it’s me : ) shamsul cairol.

2. a four letter word : cats, wakakaka (four letter word per?).

3. a boy's name : cairel, bleh gitew? kembar si cairol.

4. a girl's name : chempaka (if i have a cute gal).

5. an occupation : cikgu-cikgi.

6. a color : crayon, more kaler-ful.

7. something you'll wear : condom’s??? chihuahua safety first ma.

8. a food : all bout cheese : p nyum-nyum.

9. something found in the bathroom : colgate.

10. a place : cameron, my favourite place to konda kondi.

11. a reason for being late : “cendol kooooo, nape tak kejut aku!!!” juz create sum reason with muka eksen…nak idup kan?

12. something you'd shout : cai-yok!!!

13. a movie title : cicakman.

14. something you drink : chrysanthemum tea.

15. a musical group : chicago.

16. an animal : cipan, cipanzi, cirafah, cemut…i like it huhuhu.

17. a street name : “chow kit road, chow kit road” sing with me~

18. a type of car : chevrolate

19. the title of a song : cindai by dato’ c.t.

20. a verb : “cilakak, hwa3x” not me said but “budak buchuk” tu sllu sebut when he klimaks on train. lariiiiiikkk.

p/s: “kekacang if u tag mak lagi, mak luku kpala hang dgn buah cuku” huhuhu (addicted with diz huhu).

the t@lk

one day bila saya balik ke rumah, slalu saya terpikir…how pity i’m? p.o.o.r huh!?! i can’t standing alone for along time…gosh* ~ nak la merasa bila balik dari opis tu ada org sambut kat depan pintu rmh and make a coffee for me, massage my back and share all de story-mory each others right? pwoooorrrhh…i need a fresh air now, so can i ask diz question to “kak sri siantan” huh?

how do i know if he’s my boyfriend?

“first of all there is nothing irrational about what you are thinking. in fact, in my opinion you seem quite rational. you are not making any assumptions about the nature of your relationship with this guy and that is good. you know what you want and that too is good. finally, you know that you’ve reached a point in your mind and in the relationship where things need to be defined or they need to end and that is very good. you know your boundaries and you won’t compromise them and that shows a maturity that many adult people don’t have. congrats on that! pat yourself on the back, take a deep breath and pay close attention to the rest of what i am about to tell you. ready? good! here we go…

from what you have told me this guy is not yet your boyfriend. even though the two of you play couple you just haven’t had a meeting of the minds on whether or not you are exclusive. that’s fine, there’s nothing wrong with taking things slowly. now the question is can slowly be too slow? is there a normal pace at which relationships should be moving, a sort of timeline of milestones if you will? no, there is no normal pace. relationships move at different speeds for many reasons and there is no one way of playing it out that is “normal” or “best.” but what is a good gauge of where a relationship should be at any given time it is your gut feeling. your gut feelings are your inner guide, they let you know when you are ready for or needing a change of pace and they are what you should listen to when deciding if it’s time to initiate a move to a new phase in your relationship. right now i’d say your gut is telling you to move things along and there is only one way to do that. yep, that’s right, it’s time for the two of you to have the dreaded “talk.”

why people fear “the talk” has always been a bit of a mystery to me. i’m a plan for the worst hope for the best kind of boy myself and as such i find that good news or bad i just want to know what i’m dealing with. but for many people “the talk” is a frightening ordeal. this is probably because these people fear the answer that they don’t want to hear and this fear of rejection (or fear of having to do the rejecting as the case may be) can be very disconcerting. so that being said here is the most important rule about having “the talk”… never, ever initiate the conversation until you are ready to deal with and accept the outcome you fear the most. if you’re not ready to deal with this guy telling you that he doesn’t want to make a commitment to you don’t ask him to define your relationship. it’s that simple. but if you’re ready to deal with the rejection then go for it, initiate “the talk.” it is the only way you will ever be sure.

so there you have it, in order to know where your relationship stands you have only one choice, you have to ask. you have to have “the talk.” just one caveat, as ready as you feel you may be to deal with rejection be just as sure that you are really wanting a committed relationship with this guy. be sure you are having “the talk” because you feel ready to move things to the next level and not because you feel like you should be moving things along. don’t put the pressure on just because you think that 2 months is enough time to be in a casual relationship. if casual is still working for you just let it slide. don’t worry what the rest of the world is doing, don’t fret over how your friend’s relationships have played out in comparison to yours, just worry about what makes you happy. if what you are doing with this guy right now makes you happy why rock the boat? only you can know when you need to pick up the pace and define your relationship and only you will know when the time is right to put it all out there. bottom line in matters of the heart, trust your inner guide, your gut, because it’s rarely wrong.”

regards,
your beloved ~ still missin' you : )

“touchdown”

on last selasa, i mean diz citer las wiken nyer preview (sorry, backdated story neh) coz saya tak sempat nak update our blog’s…terlalu padat dgn jadual kerja. balik je dari kl selepas tgk puteri's adipati & nenek kebayan trus saya kena settlekan satu event for pakcik makcik gomen dari “kerajaan tempatan”. korang tau je la bila gomen-gomen punya function, tambahan plak kesemuanya datuk-datuk and y.b. satu m’sia join diz party. bak kata si kekacang (antu kueh gomen), kueh koci, pulut panggang dan minum bagai smua nak kena perfect. huh, tu baru pasal mkn…blum lagi bab penginapan, flight, gantung banner & exhibition. mau kiah ronggeng saya dibuatnya dlm waktu kritikal begini. next time-lah ye saya citer pasal event ni. this post for my abah story only, not for your dad eyes. huhuhu : ] and along de way to settle down diz event, tup-tup saya dpt phone call dari my sis.

laaaaaa, abah sakit ke? nape tak bagitau awal-awal?

shortcut my story, abah tercekik tulang ikan pari asam pedas daun kesum! ayooooo, pelik kan? korang mesti gelak guling punya…me too!!! wakakaka. how come bleh jd camni? erm, motif? yg terlintas cuma nak slamatkan abah dari any risiko. wo-wo-wo korang jgn tak caya tau my abah mmg kritikal on dat time. doctor kata situasi my abah is 50-50. listen huh…

thanks god kami ada adik-bradik yg mmg kamcing giler babas and tolerate each other. mula-mula diaorg anto abah gi spital sultanah fatimah at muo but doctor plak tak brani nak buat apa-apa action coz dat tulang dah tertanam dlm kerongkong dkt dgn halkum dan salur darah utama. lagi pun cuma ada sorang je doctor pakar kat situ. stakat yg lain tu nak buat chantek-chantek, korang baik la balik rmh je…btul tak? yg lebih trajis, luka akibat tulang tu dah buat bernanah dlm salur darah…abah ada kencing manis (tetiba je kecing manis abah dah 26~). so kitaorg adik bradik tak puas ati, then send la abah gi spital pakar putra. kat situ mmg superb la…pokoknya siapkan je duit. bagi kami duit bukan alasannya tapi keadaan abah dah 50-50, kitaorg takut abah kena semput plak sbb saluran nafas dia pun dah tinggal 0.5cm je. kalo nak kena bedah gak abah kena ler dibius mcm dibius cinta tu…ada “special effect” utk abah coz umo warga emas and ada history of stroke. pulak?!?

soooo complicated. thanks my cheerleader, korang je yg faham my situasi and make me to cry coz dat our abahkan; my abah okay! pakat nyer pakat…kitaorg dah setuju utk tutup mulot tak bgtau emak & abah psl benda ni. tak mau ler diaorg susah ati or pengsan and make we all plak pengsan too. that will make him feel pressured. kitaorg amik risiko nak buat gak operate tu. cepat atau lambat pun abah tetap kena bedah cuma yg bezanya on dat time-lah.

miracle ~ still blinkin’

oh ya, walaupun saya balik agak lewat ke muo berbanding our sibling yg lain but tu tak bermakna saya hanya berdiam diri je. saya call smua manusia yg saya kenal dan tanya how nak kluokan dat tulang ikan. finally, i catch my mak angkat yg mmg expect masak asam pedas…not to take de recipe kaaaaaan? but to help me cari org tua-tua yg mmg pandai to berubat kampong make a “holy~water” ishhhhhh…air penawar ler mengong!!! when that happens (and i suggest you do it soon) then, i send dat water to my abah to minum.

after scan and ntah apa haram lagi diaorg buat kat abah...pada hari kejadian nak operate tu...tulang ikan pari tu gone by wind beb. maha hebatkan kuasa tuhan tu. padahal dah seminggu abah kat spital dan tiap kali scan till ari nak operate pun masih tertonggok tulang kat leher tu...suddenly on dat ari selepas godek 3 jam dlm bilik operate, tup-tup gone. wow, ouch!

but now, alhamdulillah…abah dah kluo spital dan bleh la menikmati menu baru mak…org sakit tak bleh la mkn yg sedap-sedap cam kiter ni? katanyerrrrrrr.…how great to have my abah, bapak, bapa, ayah, daddy, abi, baba, walid or papa besides my mum’s. kami kumpul adik-beradik like picnic. setidak-tidaknya ujian tuhan kali ni kami berjaya lalui bersama dan mengeratkan lagi relationship antara kami. tu lah rahmatnya. thanks a lots to dr. razak, dr. yatee, dr. vj, madam lim kuan niio and pn. azamimah as jururawat terlatih. korang mmg best..!

pang, pung, ping, pung@#$%^&* dat msg by kambing...actually he’s my ex.

kambing: i’m officially being “bapak” to balqis nur aisyah on 27 feb 2009 night. alhamdulillah… dah jd bapak org.

kita: ha,ha,ha dat mean comfirm la you “lelaki” kan? terbukti kelelakiannya :p congrat!!!

kambing: selama dgn you pun i cukup lelaki kan??? ha,ha,ha.

kita: miss you so much. bebila free kita visit baby okay. take a good care.

p/s: sedap btul “baked sweet potato” tu. kalo “awak” ada sama mesti lebih manis.