Wednesday, April 29, 2009

gesture terakhir aku*

dah tiga kali saya jengah diz exhibition dan masih tak puas, i mean de first decade of millennium i jatuh ati dgn iskandar malaysia contemporary art show. every wik ada jek yg baru! dan diz wik diz exhib bergabung plak dgn "kraf m'sia" art fair. nevertheless, it needs to be acknowledged that as de world is becoming flat and imformation is readily available at de tip of our fingers, but kali ni mata saya lebih tertumpu pada karya nuriman amri abdul manap ~ gesture terakhir aku.

"sengaja aku bayangkan nikmat dalam berkenalan, berkawan, menyambut tetamu sebagai gesture terakhirku.....sebab aku sentiasa ada dibelakang dari yang lain".

p/s: this is a manisfestation of the global comtemporary art movement and it is an overvhelming fact...juz walkin' and enjoy de paintin' at danga city mall (level 4) march 14 till june 14, 2009.

Wednesday, April 22, 2009

L.!.N.G.O

one morning over breakfast, kriiiiiing, krrrrriiiinnnnngg*

“abg baru online tenet…baca blog’s ko. trus ni abg call, teringat kat ko…tgh buat pe? dah mkn?”

thanks guys, especially for dato’ and cik cahaya yg masih follows my stupid post (wei, dumping la any comment!). give them and others some credit for being our readers / bloggers. tak sangka, i finally learnt a lesson or two about politics, real entertainment and what life has to offer.

tiada hati melainkan memiliki semacam awan yg menyeliputi rembulan.

membaca adalah process pembelajaran mudah. dari vokal hingga ke konsonan and terus membicarakan soal ati & jiwa. mengenal erti sebuah kehidupan & persahabatan.

dari jejantas shoppin’ mall kelihatan org lalu lalalang melintas ke tambak johor. singgah membeli rokok, menyelak helaian akhbar dan bebrapa majalah yg agak menarik covernya di kaki lima. then, tertanya saya dlm ati ”kenapa org membeli magazine?” adakah kerana covernya yg chantek? atau findingnya yg menarik? bukankah yg chantek itu masih blum menjanjikan apa-apa harapan??? dan disebalik cover yg chantek itu jugak menyembunyikan byk jiwa yg tersinggung kerana obses melihat apa yg dipaparkan sehingga terlalu ”berharap” agar dirinya juga sebahagian daripada findings tersebut.

by de way, apabila harapan yg mula diangan-angankan musnah…ati kita juga mula ”berkecil”. lihat saja brp ramai yg mengharap diluar sana? on my lappy, while it might be cute to send smiley faces and lovey-dovey words over the air…menanti agar ada ati yg sudi ”accepted” agar tidak terlalu lama menjadi “fb pornstar!!!” wakakaka. created sum relationship katanyerrrr.

ayo, cannot do like dat one here!!! org sentiasa mahukan kesempurnaan. membuatkan ianya trus trasa hebat, sehingga terlupa bahawa ada hati yg perlu dijaga. as endearing and moving that story is, i personally feel that there has to be a sense of propriety in the way you “speak”.

“sorry i'm not really sure weather all u've done are worth compare with what he did to you. as *****, love matter is so complicated. those about you and him, not me or others. all decision are urs. but sometimes you need too think a second about urself buddy. don't even once someone can put you under their shoes. make urself as a main course. if someone try to make you as a side dishes, just live him as soon as posible before you stuck in such tangled love” via jus nenas e-mail.

…their version anyway.

so why shud it be any different anywhere else? i remember a story a fren of mine told me once bout de “you honestly rasa feeling dia kat you sama dgn feeling you kat dia? kekacang, saya tau awak sayangkan kita and as my cheerleader i dun have a sweet words to answer diz question actually~i’m lost. abah, kita dah maafkan smua org sblum kita tido. he show me a thumbs up and said ”sempoi”.

suka saya berkongsi surah as~syams yg juga dibisikkan menjadi jiwa tulang belakang ati saya…inilah makna ketulusan “shamsul : matahari”

“demi matahari dan sinarnya, demi bulan bila mengiringinya, demi siang bila menzahirkannya, demi malam bila menutupinya, demi langit dan yg membangunkannya, demi bumi dan yg menghamparkannya, demi jiwa yg menyempurnakannya...lalu diilhamkan kpdnya mn yg buruk dan mn yg baik”.

be a man, do the right thing!!! saya tak mau kehilangan sesiapa lagi (yang tersayang) dlm idup ini; kerana saya yakin “hati yg celik can love, unlove and love again” and keep up the heat!

epi besday mak!!!

saya kidnap diz statement kat “beyond aqasha” and you can clicks at his blogs also…sori aqasha, saya pinjam your magical words to create my fantasy.

gelap perlu cahaya supaya makhluk tahu apa itu 'gelap'.
baik perlu jahat, supaya makhluk tahu apa rasanya jadi 'baik'.
betul perlu salah, supaya makhluk tahu apa itu pengalaman.
cantik perlu buruk, supaya ada yang boleh jadi model dan ada yang boleh jadi photographer.
lelaki perlu perempuan, supaya makhluk boleh beranak pinak.
polis perlu penjenayah, supaya makhluk tahu apa itu undang-undang & keadilan.
yang kaya perlu yang miskin, supaya makhluk tahu apa itu martabat.
dosa perlu pahala, supaya makhluk tahu apa itu keinsafan.
kasih sayang perlu kebencian, supaya makhluk tahu apa itu penghargaan.
pencegah maksiat perlu maksiat, supaya ada perkara yang boleh dicegah (hmm?).
kita perlu syaitan, supaya kita boleh salahkan dia bila kita 'terbuat' dosa (haaa...).
azwan ali perlu gosip, supaya dia boleh terus cari makan (hahaha).
aku perlu berhenti menulis, supaya aku boleh baca apa yang dah tertulis (yes! please stop).

p/s: abah perlukan mak, agar kasih sayang saya terus mekar hingga akhir hayat... epi besday mak!!!

Saturday, April 18, 2009

nasi puteh kurang pedas, air suam kurang manis!

mengurus masa bukanlah sesuatu yg mudah dan kerap kali kita mengeluh akan singkatnya “waktu” di saat kita betul-betul memerlukan. sibuk. dari jauh saya dah nampak kroni “gossip leg’s” di bawah blok. lama betul saya tak singgah berborak dan mendengar gelak tawa gossip terkini mereka; adalah gaknya over than two wiks. dgn berkurung hijau saya membetulkan samping, takut terkorban terkena laser mereka huahahahahaha.

gossip leg’s: erm, dah balik dari opis?
kita: ha ah.
gossip leg’s: mn rempah mi bandung akak cham’s? dah dua minggu ni ha akak pesan...
kita: eh ye ke? ada pesan eh? kan ari tu kita dah bwk lima peket? korang mengkedarah bagi laki korang mkn ke? ke buat mandi bunga?
gossip leg’s: tu huh, anak dlm perut yg nak mkn (sambil memegang perut yg sedia kala buncit kesan teknik lipatan babat setempat, huhuhu)

[cam biasa stock lawak martha steward la saya praktikkan dan smua gelak terbahak-bahak...gelak bebuatan sgt]

gossip leg’s: wei, citer la pe kes ari tu?

fu11y seasoned.

antara idup dan mati…minggu lps and couple laswiks saya berhadapan dgn dua insiden yg make me lit bit trauma...trauma ke? or ati yg remuk? bermula dgn last sunday after berumahtangga kat pavilion and menantikan panggilan seseorg yg tak mungkin tiba, i’m totally lost. percikan bunga api menandakan bermulanya grand prix esok tak sedikit pun buat saya teruja. prasaan saya ditutup bercampur-campur like bursa saham dan malam ni saya abiskan dgn plan nak menonton movie “the fast and furious”.

a-la-mak, fuuuuull haus la plak!

tiket paling cepat pun 2.05 am…early morning tu. alang-alang hormone dah tak stabil and adrenalin pun dah nak klimaks, baik saya balik je and trus beli tiket utk esok. mandi arrrr, next plan…go to clubbin’.

esoknya, konda kondi at pavilion lagi…my second home pe? and byk benda saya nak cuci mata. smua my favorate outlet……sejauh ni saya dtg semata-mata utk tgk the fast and furious??? si*l-lah, i’m so surrrrrrrrpriiise! tak tau ler sape yg nak surprisekan sape. memadangkan takde benda yg miracle berlaku ari ni dan tiket wayang pun dah dibooked, so saya ngadap jelah dat movie. ensem tuuuuu boyfren kiter…huhuhu.

lately diz evening, tak banyak soal saya trus packin’ all my things…balik jb. sesungguhnya saya “terkilan”. sepanjang jln trasa hambar w’pun pedal minyak dah tekan 150km/h. so fast huh? till suddenly saya terlibat dgn one an accident kat hiway. sengal btul…dah smua keta slow and hampir brenti kat tgh hiway, and bleh plak dua keta ni tersondol each other and touch my estima. dah nak jadi citer...keta tak la brp nak remuk if dibandingkan ati saya yg dah remuk since semlm.


when friday call 8.50pm

ari ni ada party kat my opis, not a party bueh…juz simply-simply kenduri like kampung style and simpuh atas mengkuang & also mkn dlm talam reramai. syok huh? but jiwa saya btul-btul kosong seharian ni w’pun ramai yg memuji kesempurnaan majlis yg kami handlekan. as sec. event, kredit to our clicks, clap-claps!

tak sangka plak angin saya ptg ni mmg tak bleh nak control, tetiba rasa temp level dewa-dewa. seblum saya buat perangai pelik-pelik lebih baik balik rmh. on de way tu saya cuma layan “disappear”.

and again….sh*t!!! i attached with another an accident, again? what de hell-lah. mother f*cker btul. dgn control my emo tahap cipan, try to create some smile yg sure crack punyerrrr…saya trun dari keta and tgk ada sorg anak dara sengal dah tergolek dog atas jln wit her skooter. my babies? so far so gud, sihat je. but si sengal ni ler yg dah la tak pakai helmet, lesen lembu, tak bwk ic and motor pinjam then ada ati nak buat muka kekwat lagi tu. dgn terror nak potong keta kiter yg sure dah brenti and nak masuk parking dpn rmh. stupid!!! lps 2-3 minit buat aksi kekwat, nervous nyer psl si sengal ni tetiba kena semput. bleh plak landing pitam atas saya lebih 3-4 kali. nasib gak ada our jiran. so nak pikul dah la gedempol mcm guni beras…so i humban je la kat dlm keta tu anto gi klinik memlm buta gini.

kira bagus accident ngan saya tau, smua bil dah saya settlekan. fu-la-mak or p*kimak??? kena zakat tu.

kita: huh, tulah citernya... 20% angel and 80% devil.
gossip leg’s: ala, pompuan tuh mmg nak landing atas ko tuh cham’s. amik kesempatan. kalo tumbang atas laki aku...erm dah lama aku baling pasu dari tingkat atas!!!
kita: ala kak, kejam sgt tuuuuu, hahahaha : )

ada ”wahyu” yg saya dpt dari accident ni:

jika benar takdir telah tercatat di ilahi, kenapa tidak kita mecuba utk mengubahnya? ajal, maut, jodoh dan rezeki itu ditangan tuhan; ini tak bererti kita harus duduk mengangkang tanpa terus berusaha & mencuba!!! prasaan ”complacence” tu membuat kita hanya pandai ”bercakap” dari mengotakannya. hanya semangat kental mampu mengatasi. relationship juga dtg dlm pelbagai cara, adakalanya perkara yg pahit tak semestinya derita. kekuatan itu dtg dari dlm diri kita sendiri dan bergantung bagaimana kita mengalirkan tenaga +ve (chi) itu ke persekitarannya.

Tuesday, April 14, 2009

benC!nta

las wik merupakan satu tempoh yg singkat giler tuk buat smua benda yg di“tagging” urgent, tapi bebannya baru arini saya terasa…kalo la bleh pinjam tangan tuhan mahabrata??? ntah pe la dosa saya masa dlm meeting ari tu tetiba my bos yg kekwat giler tu alihkan remote control dia pada saya. berdosa ke senyum dlm mtg? berbakat kata-nyerrrr…tu dah mmg saya tau. eleh, cubalah bgtau apa yg saya tak tau lagi? born as gifted pe.

udah ler on las year saya “ter-bolos” dari senarai pendek “cemerlang” walaupun cuma kureeeeeng 4 point of hundred. diz year saya tak simpan any hope, juz tango. for-fu-lar sgt ke saya sampai smua benda nak kena letak nama kiter neh? new brandin’ eh? it’s me? ke nak tumpang my popularity? camtu kenalah bayo royalty. wake up!!! charity show time.

bout de awards + awords

tugasan kali nie yelah menyiapkan paperwork merangkap site visit segala…dan nilah remote control utk saya cap ayam = “the world habitat awards” were established in 1985 by the building and social housing foundation as part of its contribution to the united nations international year of shelter for the homeless.

bukanlah pertama kali saya join keje charity, before diz saya jugak pernah join unesco utk projek “jonker street” dan hasilnya…u can see-lah sekarang. for diz project, two awards are given annually to projects from the global north as well as the south that provide practical and innovative solutions to current housing needs and problems.

every year an award of £10,000 is presented to each of the two winners at the annual united nations global celebration of world habitat day. travel and accommodation costs are also met for one representative of each winning project to attend the awards ceremony. tu pun kalo menang…but tak salahkan kalo ada angan-angan mat jenin, manalah tau ter-menang!

how to enter?

korang bleh je online di http://worldhabitatawards.org/ and segala info korang bleh klik at diz website. pwoooooorrrrh, blum pun abis azab dah trima satu lagi pesanan sms dari “womaniser” ni. azab-ban-nar btul ler pompuan sekor neh.

“salam 165, oleh kerana kamu tak habiskan attend sepenuhnya, saya masukkan nama kamu sekali lagi. esok surat kluo”.

ringkas dan padat!!! ayo, gigihkan anto msg sesenja gini. on my wiken plak tuh? mau koma dibuatnya. surat khas utk saya? ter-tagging lagi keeee, mati dek! actually, last year saya kena taggin’ dgn my kekwat bos tuk pegi program esq (emotional spiritual quotient) with selected officer. but dari 3 ari yg padat tu saya cuma berkesempatan pegi sehari je dan yg lainnya saya abiskan kat exam pegawai diplomatik and clubbin’ around kl, huhuhu (juz give a gud reason). dah kira bagus i nak pegi sehari, if sejam je? ke seminit je? uhhhh, what now? what de hell? "recharging" and again…tak sanggup nak jadi hiporkrit utk angguk-angguk & geleng-geleng…dat not me-lah!!!

mak, plez help me…?

Sunday, April 12, 2009

lucky-laki

one day masa tgh berpoya-poya around opis, tetiba barli suam yg tak brapa nak suam tu ter-excited nak dedicated diz song tu me; senoneng till her sang de “song-sang” lyric. de title of diz song is “lucky” but i shout…what? dat not “laki” mak tiri you all laaaaaa. great “lucky” by jason mraz or jason marikh feat colbie caillat (kobis kailan) huhuhu :p

i like de video clips...nice sgt!!! and de lyric too, like kucing nak mengawan…meooooww.

do you hear me,
i'm talking to you
across the water across the deep blue ocean
under the open sky, oh my, baby i'm trying
boy i hear you in my dreams
i feel your whisper across the sea
i keep you with me in my heart
you make it easier when life gets hard
i'm lucky i'm in love with my best friend
lucky to have been where i have been
lucky to be coming home again
ooohh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh
they don't know how long it takes
waiting for a love like this
every time we say goodbye
i wish we had one more kiss
i'll wait for you i promise you, i will
i'm lucky i'm in love with my best friend
lucky to have been where i have been
lucky to be coming home again
lucky we're in love every way
lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
lucky to be coming home someday
and so i'm sailing through the sea
to an island where we'll meet
you'll hear the music fill the air
i'll put a flower in your hair
though the breezes through trees
move so pretty you're all i see
as the world keeps spinning round
you hold me right here right now
i'm lucky i'm in love with my best friend
lucky to have been where i have been
lucky to be coming home again
i'm lucky we're in love every way
lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
lucky to be coming home someday
ooohh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh
ooooh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh


alo barli suam, de oooooohhhh and ahhhhhh sound so lucah la dear…wakakaka.

Sunday, April 5, 2009

lady's choice

1.Who was your FIRST prom date?
prom ke pom-pom? i think de “prom-oter” eh? actually, no-no subject.

2. Do you still talk to your FIRST love?
nope, but i knows like his said “saya tunggu awak kawin dulu, then baru saya kawin…”. drama sgtkan?

3. What was your 1st alcoholic drink?
jack’s & daniel (no. 7).

4. What was your FIRST job?
blow-job! lalalalala.

5. What was your FIRST car?
"ka-ki" so what now? nak kena babab ke?

6. Who was the FIRST person to text you today?
dilla al-fayed, got an extra sms…bonus her besday trial pax session.

7. Who is the FIRST person you thought of this morning?
"buchuk".

8. Who was your FIRST grade teacher?
cikgu eton (tabika). she was always give me kueh bijan when i’m crying. then, i’m crying loud-loud speaker sbb tak suka dat kueh.

9. Where was the first place you went in a plane?
fun fair, dah plane tu naik by token? konfius jap? uweeeks.

10. Who was your FIRST best friend & do you still talk?
lost~

11. Where was your FIRST sleep over?
his arm.

12. Who was the FIRST person you talked to today?
barli suam…makcik, korang nak makan tak???

13. Whose wedding were you in the FIRST time?
i hate wed’s kenduri…panas-lah.

14. What was the FIRST thing you did this morning?
campak my hp from my queen bed.

15. What was the FIRST concert you ever went to?
ziana zain.

16. FIRST tattoo?
nak buat gak but takut kena pelangkong with my fama. mati dek!!!

17. First piercing?
plez ask me.

18. First foreign country you've been to?
singapore. gealang si paku gealang…hoi-hoi! mak kiter suka sgt beli pinggan mangkuk kat sini.

19. FIRST movie you remember seeing?
"azura". mak abah kiter demam citer ni till beli OST, kami watchin’ with de whole family at cathay.

20. When was your FIRST detention?
1990, when cikgu disiplin yg stupid tu tuduh kitaorg mevavi buta sbb conteng tandas and as a denda we all kena cuci tandas tu sampai bersih. arse licker!!!

21. What was the first state you lived in?
muo, johor.

22. Who was your FIRST roommate?
loan (pendang’s boy) very de sekolah pondok and really know how to make me calm’s.

23. If you had one wish. What would it be?
i wish you a merry christmas!!! big sale, long holiday, got a bonus too.

24. What is something you would learn if you had the chance?
can mali can, beh gitew? play a lots. r’u talkin' prada?

25. Who do you think will be the next person to post this?
1. adie & pakwe
2. barli suam & jus nenas
3. akmal (wei, ”k” ke ”q”?)
4. haire potter & kylie minox
5. y.o.u-lah, nape tak percaya ke?


tag by kekacang

Thursday, April 2, 2009

my day (",)

tetingkap
old's passion
angsoka road
sidai
couple'sky
bridge hearts
[no title]
shop@holic
where is my tickets?
i am cham's
lost~wakenabeb.
i'm back!
* all diz picture saya amik semasa berada di kuala lumpur...heart of souls.

Wednesday, April 1, 2009

ELEVAT!ON

she’s big and she’s back!!!

sooooooo “huge”? if the name anggun cipta sasmi doesn’t ring a bell, then simply try anggun. yup, the indonesian diva of french citizenship is ready to share her fifth english album, elevation. excited gilerrrrrrr…


semuanya secara tak sengaja apabila menyelak news paper dlm kesibukan melayan guest di exhibition tempohari, anggun huh? antara artis yg menawan saya sepanjang di universiti kerana suaranya yg superb; global celebrity status with her album snow on the sahara and david bowie’s hit song life on mars, will be performing songs from her new album at hotel istana.
kesibukan memaksa saya membuat keputusan singkat and “plez booked dat tikckets ye…..help me kekacang”. saya tau ramai yg tak mampu menolak kehebatan vokalnya, hushky. apatah lagi, passes will be given out on a first-come-first-served basis and are limited (juz rm25 for single cd as a passes).

chantek + brilliant + funny = sophisticated

hanya bertemankan gitar dan juga piano (eddrie & roszario) mengiringi performance gadis jawa yg cukup sederhana, acoustic showcase…erk, mana cukup lima lagu? nyanyian imran ajmain dan nurul membuka tirai as warm greetin’.

album elevation mmg syok, dgn 13 lagu berserta empat lagu bonus. and so sure ada lagu yg sudah melekat dlm ati saya seperti “jadi milik mu (crazy)” dan “berganti hati (no song)”. bisa bikin gue lalok ...layan.

big’s Q: apa kaitannya anggun & afgan selain huruf “a” pada awal nama diaorg? sengalkan? saya pegi showcase anggun but kena interview utk siaran astro “era di tv” psl afgan…bebuatan sgt muka masa tu. hahaha susah btul nak larik dari paparazi ni :D

"tak lagi ku mencari yang aku rindu ada di sini
tak lagi aku sendiri wajahmu terlukis di hati
engkau matahariku kau sinar pagi sinar malamku
hati yang dulu biru kini tertawa karenamu..."