Wednesday, December 31, 2008

it's time to let it go


dah lama saya tak menulis, so rasa macam kekurangan idea nak menaip. menyelak majalah lama di kaki rak dan kekadang terpaksa memandang tembus ke skrin laptop. saya bukannya novelis cuma bekas editor dan penulis projok lapuk yang terpaksa mengerah oksigen ke otak berpikir sejenak apakah topik menarik yang nak saya tulis ni? memandangkan beberapa ari je lagi kita akan melangkah ke tahun 2009, maka bersesuaian la saya menulis tentang musim yang bertukar ganti ni.

pagi ni bila saya bangun dari tido…”alo, mana hadiah krismas saya?” tergelak kecil memandang gambar teman-teman di bucu meja. merekalah yang menemani saya sepanjang tahun ini dan selama ini. gigih mendengar cerita dan bercerita serta tak ubah seperti cheer leader tak bergaji. itulah erti sebuah persahabatan, dan warna kegembiraan. a friend is one who walks in when others walk out. bukan gucci atau prada yang membuat kita gembira but wa-lau-pun ianya harus ada dalam my wardrobe. ermmm, hahaha!?!

live life to the fullest

if you ever had your car break down and frantically called a family member from a phone booth to pick you up and help, you know how good it is to hear the phrase, “i’ll be there”. or if late nite illness means taking a child to a hospital emergency room and you call on a friend to come and sit with other children, it is tremendously reassuring to hear that friend immediately respond, “i’ll be there”.

if there has been a death in the family and you phone an old friend, the blow of grief is softened by the words, “i’ll be there”. being there for another person is the greatest gift we can give. when we are truly present for other people, important things happen to them and to us. we are renewed in love and friendship. we are restored emotionally and spiritually. “being there” is at the very core of civility.

banyak benda orang bleh perkatakan but life is nothing more than a book of which all of us write pages and chapters everyday. ini melibatkan prasaan dan perilaku manusia “human sense”, your inner peace, self esteem, and confidence in who you are determines your success, not what others think about you.

when i told my family i intended to give up on my job, return to school and after graduation work with the poor there were quick to voice their objections. their harsh comments and hasty strained our relationship. however, the lone supportive voice came from “orang dapur, bersekolah kampong” my lovely mum. quietly but consistently she said, “cham, go for it. follow your dreams. kalo tu yang awak suka, yang awak minat, mak ikut aje…” mak memang orang yang paling special dalam hidup saya, dalam ati ni tempatnya tidak pernah diganggu gugat. teman bergosip dan juga my sifu. Sekarang baru saya sedar kenapa emak menjadi tempat “bergantung hidup” dan bukan sekadar kantung susu yang bergantung pada tubuhnya; kerana dari situlah bermulanya sebuah ikatan dan pertalian ibu anak serta sebuah persahabatan.

de moral is getting the support you need when no one else seems to believe in you can be very inspiring and it spurs you to greater heights. so learn to encourage, it can be one of the most rewarding things you can do for another person. hey, saya pinjam ye kata-kata ni…“apabila dunia kelihatan menentang kita, ingatlah bahawa kapal terbang berlepas dengan menongkah angin dan bukannya seiringan” by henry ford.

tomorrow is a new day. you shall begin it serenely and with too high a spirit to be encumbered by your old nonsense. kepada kekawan yang sentiasa menangis dan ketawa bersama saya…thanks! hanya tuhan membalasnya, sebab saya tak pandai memuji. pastinya lebih banyak cabaran akan kita tempuh bersama selepas ini. selamat datang 2009!!!


* notes: picture edit version

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